Today I have been overwhelmed by notes of well wishes and positive thoughts being sent my way. Last year, I found this day very difficult - in fact it was probably the hardest day after my Mom's funeral. For so many years, we would celebrate 'the three birthdays' together - Mom, Michael and myself. It feels strange not to be able to pick up the phone and leave a silly message on her old-school answering machine (you all know the one..."Hi! You have reached..." - I wonder how many tapes she'd gone through over the years!!). When we were little we had a birthday weekend, compliments of her parents. The three of us would get a weekend away at the Old Orchard Inn, which included a stop at the Sunday flea market in the County Fair Mall. It was a tradition that Mom and I had always intended on reliving at 'some point.'
|The Mujjie, The Brujjie, and myself. Not sure what year this was.|
This past year has been one of the best of my life, which I'm sure sounds crazy considering it was the first full year without my best friend. I did things I never imagined. I've live in three different countries, met some amazing people, and pushed myself outside of my comfort zone when possible. Twenty-nine was a good year to be me. Now, this isn't to suggest that it hasn't had it's share of heartbreak, tears, and disappointments, but I'd consider myself to be pretty lucky, all things considered!
As I sit here typing away, I am reflecting on my last ten years. I think of the many obstacles I've overcome. I think of how much I've grown. I think about the people who surround me, and how happy I am to see friends I've had since childhood having babies and starting these incredible lives. It's taken me a long time to get to where I am at this moment - and not even just physically or geographically, but mentally. I've lived 29 years and 364 days and have yet to regret a singe decision I have ever made. And yes, that includes the ones that have placed me in some difficult and unwelcome situations. But the things is, I'm on the cusp of another chapter. I don't know exactly what the next ten years will bring...or the next year, for that matter. I am at a point where things are finally starting to fall into place. I'm surrounded by opportunity. It's just a matter of solidifying what I want to do and making it happen. I feel excited. I feel nervous. I feel exactly how I usually do moments before taking my first step on a new adventure. And I can't wait.
-the Orange Canadian